With every heartbeat

Elegance is an attitude !

2012-01-31T23:20:00.006+08:00

29 JANUARY 2012 ; HAPPY 19TH TO ME ! :)

Hey babies ! Im back ! If you noticed today's date is 31st January 2012 , which also means the last day of January ! Are you excited to welcome another new month? Side track abit, this year January was the most memorable one for me, not only i've wonderful and blessed birthday but also it's filled with more surprises ! I wanna thanks each and every one of you who made the effort ; especially my family and relatives ! Thanked you for the presents and ang bao ! and not to forget my friends who actually throw the birthday bash at me , pictures ans videos were the evidence !!!!!!! Hope all of you have fun on that day ! Not to forget to those who wishes me at fb, twitter, phone calls and texts as well! THANKS ALL ONCE AGAIN! ;) hehehehehehee

Ok i think that's the end? Coz im seriously damn lazy to continue typing, follow me at twitter ! More active there but obviously i wont abandon this space so stay tune for more ! ;) anyway ....., it's already 1st feb already, so here i am wishing everything would goes smoothly for everyone! That same old saying ^^v

Chinese New Year 2012

2012-01-27T21:48:00.005+08:00

Too lazy to update, just update with pictures kkkk?! Will update more soon hehe :)

anyway, Happy new year ! HUAT AH ! :) in another 2 days time to my big day, time flies ! :))

ok stay tune ! ^^v

*I wish someone could be like you, yea in my dream please, continue to dream and picture it more

Its been very long i feel the feeling of being loved , miss those feelings very much

Jiggling that mingling ~ We run the night "

2012-01-18T17:00:00.003+08:00

my $80++ worth of cny new clothes, yea everything tops and bottoms black haha!

Baby Charlene actual birthday is on 30th January , right after mine! haha! :)

Hey what's up ~ hahahaha sorry for that slant yo, ok im here to update ! Finally ?!

i'm not working anymore and having this long " term break" , worked for bnc for one month and barely even one week, i wanna call it all quit, firstly ; suck up boss attitude ; lousy colleague from fep secondly, im not treated with respect and why should i in return be nice too ? RIGHT? everyone wants respect, if you cant show me the basic ones, why must i then? Thirdly ; pay fucking low even after deducted by cpf -.- and lastly , everyone *( k maybe one or two ) in bnc sucks and fuck ~

Lousy retail shop , lousy management with the work flow and everyday doing sai kang for them, why a, i so hardworking when comes to this job? Plain wasting my time -.- I could have take up higher pay job , i should have but at the point of time, erm i dont know if *you are reading this, yea i put him my first priority and at the point of time i know he wants me to see me as much as i want , im willing to actually reject the high pay job and spend more time with him but i was wrong, so wrong

That higher pay job require me to working freaking long hours whereas the low pay job only needed to work for 5 working days, but in the end we aren't seeing each other anymore so i guess im really a dumb ass girl right? I dont know why i always sacrifice so much but in the end all i got was disappointment after one another , but it's ok everyone make mistakes, i guess i wont even make anyone my priority other then my family first , because right now i really do enjoy my life now , no relationship and such, a very peaceful life which i yearn for , for a very long time yet i didnt achieve it , im more into doing things independently and i must really admit that after going through so much especially that incident

and i super love my mum even though i really detest her at times, this few days have been spending time with her hahaha, we even went to jb for our hair therapy ! Now waiting for my hair colour to drop to hot RED , but currently hair colour looks black :'( waiting for it grow long and drop the colour , pretty pretty please ! can't wait for the big change ! hmmmm

ok, im not here to brag about past stuff, i actually wanna update about the birthday celebration my dear friend, Hui Ping invited Yanling and myself to her daughter's first birthday ! :) Ok shall let the pictures do the talking , enjoy and before that i would like to say .........................................................

in another 11 more days to MY BIRTHDAY ! (Y) whoo hoooooooooooo! ok i can't wait ! ;) I really wish this year birthday could let me have a memorable ones , a very special ones that i would always remember throughout my life, dont think about 21st yet, i only care about present and not the future, so might as well enjoy life to the fullest now right? Why bother so much ? JUST ENJOY LIFE ~ ok peace out ! :)

Stay tune for more updates ! :)

FRIDAY THE 13TH

2012-01-13T15:29:00.004+08:00

My seventh birthday hahahaha! WTH

Is it time for update now? Since ive nothing to do, yea so why not? Actually there's really nothing to brag about seriously, because days like this , everyday routine like a life cycle that repeats everyday you see, how boring can it be? Sometimes i wonder, why do we have to grow up and age at the same time , i mean the things we do are always the same, cant we have a unique life ? i dont know, i just get sick and tired of what im doing now, especially the devastating moment when i can't even go poly, dont wanna talk about that part anymore, it's a disappointment but life still goes on eventually?

im actually starring at this space, thinking what to type next O.o Oh i remember already, yea in another 16 days time, im turning 19 ! Yeah? Am i actually excited over it? Erm honestly speaking, somehow? I dont know why i dont feel excited about it, im abnormal? HAHA kidding ~! My girlfriend actually contribute some suggestions on how to celebrate this 19th birthday, party party?! It's really time to enjoy ! fickle minded me, i'll let you guys know about my plans again, stay tune !

Im stuck of what to blog now, how how how?! I dont want to type nonsense here, it's been very very long i come back to read back all those past entries , it reminds me of people used to be very close and deary to me, laughed at how silly those moments i had, it's always good to reminisce those pasts because from there , you actually know how you that person meant to you in the past, not regretting for not treasuring so on and so fore, right right right? time to move on and never look back i guess? Hmmmmm

alright, shall end till here , i've got any appointment with miss Yanling for swimming session, peace out ! (Y) STAY TUNE FOR PICTURES ! :))))))

HAPPY NEW YEAR ! 2012 (Y)

2012-01-01T00:19:00.004+08:00

Hey babies ! Guess who's back? It's me babies ! i know i have not be blogging for a very long time, but since today marks the first day of 2012, i shall make this post a very special one :)

Anyway, what are you guys 2012 resolution ? Well for me, in case you all are curious and wanna know me better, this is the site you guys should check it out, k provided i constantly update my lil space here hehe :) Oh well... , here it goes -----> for my 2012 resolution :

1. Party hard , play hard and enjoy life hard ( Afterall everyone should have their first time right? I've never club ever since now, but i've the strong feeling and urge to enjoy myself now, hey ! It's really time to enjoy ! )

2. Meet new friends ! ( Yes constantly to make new friends throughout this year , get to know one another )

3. A stable relationship to get settle down ( Not a must but we shall see k ? ;) I WAS KIDDING LA !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4. Spend more time with family as much as i can , not to forget my friends too! :)

&&&&& lastly, to have a successful career ahead ! ;)

In case you guys must be thinking am i in hiatus or what, sadly to said im not , i'm just lazy to update and if you guys have twitter, just follow me there, i'm more active there hehehe :) I'll definitely update there almost everyday , every min and every sec :))

kkkkk, i shall end till here, stay tune for more k ? Shall upload pictures lor ! Anyway, Happy 2012 once again, blessed to have lovely people revolving around my life, thanks all who make it up for me throughout my life ! Thanks and god bless ;)

I wanna sing, i wanna shout , i wanna scream till the world cry out ; read about it

2011-11-12T12:43:00.007+08:00

Overdue pictures taken , check it out at FB! :)

It's wayyyyyyyyyy too long that i didn't update my blog, simply too lazy to update my lil space here look for lipsthatstinks in twitter ! :) I'm more active there , i guess twitter getting more popular because we are like talking to ourselves over there , expressing our thoughts and what's not right?

On a side note, i'm officially graduating from my course and now ive to find a job myself already but fear not, i'm gonna look for one when i'm back from my 5 days trip to macau/hk! will be back on the 18th nov! :) am so excited for this trip so badly, i seriously need a getaway that badly too, hope when i'm back in sg, there'll be more surprises ! ;)

i'm suppose to meet lew today but due to my eyes infection, mum don't allow me to go out

feel kind of guilty for not meeting him beforehand , arghhhh worse day for me , homesick ! :(

pray hard that tml let me recover and im able to meet him ! :) Uncountable quarrels this few days, and i hope we will lessen it , i really like this boy here , he make me learn a few things in life, i know i have to independent without him guiding me in life, ive to learn how to handle my own life eventually , LOVE !

I guess ive nothing to update other then uploading pictures? Stay tune! I will try my best to update as much as i can ok? :)

Be a girl with a mind, a bitch with an attitude, a lady with class.

2011-10-13T23:10:00.010+08:00

I'm back! i've so much to update but i've no idea to start! probably you can just follow me at twitter then, i'm 100% more active there, unlike blog ; you got to update once you have the feel to blog and by the time i'm done updating, its like pointless because it's past which happened like yesterday hah!

Book an appointment with Essensuals now!

Super love the side of my hair, bob style! (Y)

anyway, i'm super satisfied with my new look! Thanks to Essensuals Bugi salon! (Y) Thanks wayne for help me create a new look! Anyone who is like me, wanna try new look and have no idea which salon to go? You can go book an appointment with Essensuals Bugis ; i'm pretty sure you guys have heard about this salon before? Where all the famous blogger went there to have a hair cut , double thumbs up! Super like the " home based " environment in the salon, friendly hair stylist and all ; would definitely go there again! :) Thanks Wayne once again! And thanks Jace for recommending me too even though i've heard and seen about it hehe! :)

Favourite us (Y)

And as for me, am doing good too ; just can't wait for my attachment which ends next friday ; 21st october! :) time past fast and it's already the fourth month! Super excited about it! Are you too? hahaha! Have been meeting love every now and then , can't wait for attachment to end and we can party till wild! ;) Thanks for always be there for me even though you never once blame on me for my suckup attitude :p

Exactly one more month to my hk trip ! I can't wait ! Super excited for this trip with my beloved family, i hope this getaway can bring all my problems away , be less stress free , pretty pretty please arrive soon! :D

Alright, i shall end till here! Till then, stay tune for more updates ! :) Tata! bye! ;)

Breathe. Let go and take me away as far as possible

2011-10-04T00:19:00.006+08:00

It's the month of october now, i'm too lazy to update this lil space of mine and i see no point to keep blogging about my life, it's so mundane ! Just wanna briefly share with you guys what ive been doing for this past few days and weeks, actually nothing special also ; just that we or me decided to end this relationship whom i've been loving the same guy with the same situation, i guess we're all tired of having promises , trust and what's not between the both of us, let's just admit that we are simply just tired of being together for that period of 18 months, i guess it's consider both fair and square that we did something wrong that we shouldn't be doing in the first place, i meant there's isn't any love and it's already clearly have shown that , everything has to put a stop and enough is enough, if we both love each other, there shouldn't be any misunderstanding happened between us, but my main objective to be here is that, let's just move on with doing things that we both like to do, in fact probably you have meet a girl whom you'v been together before, might be things work well for the both of you ; whatever it is just wanna say carry on and goodluck to whatever you're doing , dont repeat the same mistake we did a year ago. One is enough , you can't possibility be repeating the same old one , don't repeat!

And as for me , im ending my attachment in another 17 more days! Im pretty much excited about it but at the same time , im nervous and anxious about my overall performance and grades for this attachment, i just wanna do my best and let nothing to distract me , hope everything runs smoothly for me :)

In fact this 1 month being tgt with Lew with no status , i really had a great time being with him

you might as well ask me, why aren't we in a status? The answer is very simple, not wanting to stay too committed in a rs and both not looking forward to have any official relationship, it's rather staying like this then to be in an actual relationship , whereby there's break ups and ending up like enemies or strangers, losing contact with one another, i don't want that kind of relationship, it's already damm painful going through so much by myself and i cant be affording to repeat the same old mistake, i'm happier staying this way and i really do.

I guess that's all i wanna say? I've nothing much to update too, follow me in twitter as im more active there! Loves! :) Stay Tune for more entries! :)

you took my love, i thought i was the only one

2011-09-16T00:28:00.004+08:00

Hi! I'm back with updates, ok i don't have to explained so much about my current life now

since i've choose this path, i should forget our pasts and move on and work hard for our future, as usual i dont expect much in our relationship but i am happy that we had our heart to heart talk under the moon and since we both choose this tgt, we shall work hard for our future alright? Yes, indeed a long path for us but i'm sure we'll never give up easily right? We've come to this far, rough patch for 4 times and yet back again, i'm sure we know how to handle each other's flaws , i'm pretty sure about it because we're already getting used to each other in our daily life, no one is perfect in a relationship but i'm confident enough that we can go this far :')

This few days, have been meeting love and friends for dinner, today we went over to bugis for Seoul Garden! Double dates! (Y) Twenty first FTW! :) damm bloated after having steamboat and bbq over there, overall enjoy myself as usual ! :) Aftermath, photo taking session! Poloroid session with my boy for the second time, much more better then the first time! (Y) in fact, we don't always take pictures with each other as we age, true enough as i browsed through our pictures and i laughed, oh my! Reminisce !

I wish everyday life would definitely be a great one with you, just like how we used to be in the past, i wanna explore the world with you, i've still have a lifetime to spend it with you, i'm waiting for you , my love , grant my wish :') love you always~

Don't play hard to get, play hard to forget.

2011-09-06T23:22:00.004+08:00

How's my bangs? self cut! Testing my own skill! hehe! :)

My 3 years old girls!

No, we're not dating. But he's still mine. ♥

Somewhere, somehow, i met you :)

Hi! I'm back to update my blog! I know i'll only update my blog when i've pictures and things to share with you guys , whoever you're , thanks for reading! Much appreciated! :)

Apparently, my life have been going good and smooth and noticed it that it's already september period? Well, dont you agree that time past fast? Indeed very fast, but of course i won't broad about the past anymore, no point and i'm not going to turn back, enough is enough already, no one appreciate what i've done and kept taking me for granted!

Well, my everyday life would be work work work and work! But not to forget those friends whom i've been meeting every now and then, thanks all for making me so cheerful :) I feel so much better after going through so much with the same person, same situation and same character, i can't take it, enough is enough ; friends is so much better then being in a relationship , who say an ex cannot be back as friend? Right?

alright, too much of talking, i'll just post pictures, enjoy looking at it! :)

学会这么去拿得起，放得下

2011-08-21T09:33:00.005+08:00

每一次创伤都是一种成熟，每一次失去都是一种获得。

I'm back to update reason was very simple , just like i need a listening ear but instead of a ear , it's an eyes . Well, nothing much to said because heart and feelings were all numb by the same person who hurt me third time , it's ok if a guy human nature is to flirt and two timed his gf behind her back being with another girl, it's ok i don't want pin point at others because it's over, dun have to grave over the sadness of someone whom i've been highly expected thinking that he would change not for me but for the least of himself and our relationship, when we patched back that period of time i did forgive and forget our past because of our biggest mistakes to take away our small bb life on the 24th nov , i'm not seeking for revenge , neither do i treat you as enemy , it's tiring to hold grudges on you, i'm tired to keep hating you, we can be friends but not as close like when we ere together, i'll definitely miss our past,i'm not crying for you anymore, one day of craving is enough

I just wish all the best in your new relationship, i know who the girl is so don't have to explain, don't forget i'm smarter then you in terms of you hiding things behind my back, i just hope at least you can change your lifestyle abit , i know i dun have the authority to said much but as a friend, i care for you , just move on with your life with youe new gf and i'll move on too, thanks for this one year and 8 months relationship through on and off with uncountable quarrels and the love we shared, jiajie i really hope to see you change to a better person , 不要每次像大男人气一样 ok , come to think of it how do i know you throughout this 5 years? hahaha! Jia you i believe you can do it, just like how i trusted you when you want me to trust you in the past, takecare!

I know this post is abit impromptu , but at least at the same time my heart feel light hearted now

it took me 3 days to slowly to adapt a new life from now, i believe i'll stay stronger this time ?

well anyway, ytd went over to farm for seventh month event since i worked half day yesterday

great experience to see those things that i've not seen before, sorry i abit kiasu hahaha! Have a great time talking to people in tua , hope to see you guys again , have fun at the same time too!

Thanks to kahpoh , Steffie and Liling ytd, nice having girls talks with one another, feel better when saying out things i wanna say and thanks for the advices! Thank you and hope to see you girls again! :)

Alright, i shall get prepare for work now , hate working during the weekends! :( I'll update again soon ok? Bye! :)

Lips don't lie , so does eyes

2011-08-17T22:05:00.004+08:00

If everyday, my smiles would remain like this

As usual, i guess i'll only update my blog when i'm having off day

well, as usual during my off day , met dearest whenever we are having off but this time the time we spend together is so short as due to him needed to do something at tua, i missed our past so much when we get to meet each other almost everyday in a week, when will this ever come? I know i miss bring forward the time and not look back, but things have practically change and i missed the old us :( I hope everything run smoothly for both of us, had heart to heart talked with dearest this afternoon and we laughed so happily, hopefully everyday live for us would remain this way :') I don't ask for more but the only thing i wish for is you being there for me mentally and physically there for me :')

Back to side track, this morning headed over to school as i intended to return my log book A for attachment but who knows i left my book at my workplace! Nice one lor, next week have to make a trip down, sieh sian de le like that aiyo! Why am i so forgetful! :( But afterall, nice catch up session with my classmates as well! Yeah! Hope to see everyone when attachment ends! :)

Alright, i shall end till here there's nothing for me to update , stay tune once again! :)

因为懂得，所以宽容

2011-08-10T20:53:00.004+08:00

Love the leopard prints dress that i bought today! :)

Seoul garden for yesterday dinner! :)

Decided to come back to update since i'm free right now and i'm typing it fast because i'm gonna catch the channel 8 drama ' On the fringe 2" at 9pm later! So i better be in a hurry now! Just to be short and sweet, this few days and weeks , i've been meeting my lovely sweet bf hahaha! But i won't elaborate this much, so for those of you who have already followed me in twitter, good for you! :)

Love my straight hair! :D

Anyway, just wanna briefly update that ytd we went over to jurong west for our hair appt!

No more curl hair for me! So hard to maintain and made my hair so " bong" which i dun like!

back to straight hair and much more satisfied ! Bf did his hair too! So vain! :) hahahaha!

so we went there like 7 am plus ok! Because i booked the earliest time slot! Which is good so that aftermath, we headed to jp to have our lunch fulfilled! Pepper Lunch! (Y)

Next, went back to his place to have a nap and rushed over to cwp for our movie : Zookeeper! awesome! :D Seoul garden for our dinner! Yeah but i always said i would never come back again because after leaving the shop , my whole hair stinks!

Anyway, bf send me back home hehehe! love die him, meeting him tml again! For our movie tml ! " Planet of the apes! " Alright, shall go watch my show now! Update again soon! Stay tune! :)

An eye for an eye!

2011-08-01T23:40:00.005+08:00

I was given choices and i chose you, to be there for you and to be there to love you.

It's a brand new month : Let's welcome August! Let put behind the bad moments with July

although i've only went through a month and so with bf , things have went well for us and i hope throughout this journey together, everything goes smoothly for us , now working hard to put away all those bad moments we used to had and look forward for a brand new day, i must say the path we choose might be tough but at the end of the day, everything is worth while :')

As for me, it's been a month i've been sticking with Amore and i'm proud to work there

in fact, everyday i've been working there can made me forget all those unhappiness that stays around me, whether if i'm busy or not , still i'll still forget those things that i don't wish to remember and good things would always come at the right time right? :) So for now, i'm looking forward for my off day which is on this thurs! Shall head town with bf ! It's been so longgggg that we last went to town wor, hahahaha because we always nua at his place , lazy to travel too ! :)

So for now, i wish everyone whom is dearest to me , to stay smoothly throughout their life :) Alright, shall head to bed now! It's Hungry Ghost Festival now, remind myself not to go out too late, pray everything goes soon soon li li!!! Nights!

Take me to wonderland please~!

2011-07-26T22:23:00.004+08:00

Look at Jayden's smile! :)

Hahaha! ''I love to sleep with my mouth open big "

It's good that i come back to update my blog as i can see spider webs all over already hah!

anyway, since it's my off day today and i'm so free right now, why not just do a simple update?

Well, initially today's not my fix off day where normally my off day would be on every thurs but because of this sudden change as my manager Pauline's birthday, so i've to take over the shift and thank god it's only half day :) So happy because after work, i'm meeting bf afterwards :) hehe!

So for today, met up with Yuanting and her son once again! Her son never fail to made me laughed lor, cheerful baby n today he's super cranky! Must be the weather i guess? Yea i guess so haha!

we went to Daiso so get my stuffs, bought two pinky containers ! Because somebody asked me to pack his room again -.- I'm a part time maid of his haha!

Babysit him but this time round, the duration of babysitting him is shorten then the previous one because he's cranky :( I realised i can't carry baby well haha! Need more practice! :D

alright, shall post up pictures and remember to click on my ads if there is and follow me in twitter! i'm active there! :)

An applause is deserved for the girls who had courage to say goodbye.

2011-07-14T22:35:00.006+08:00

'We might not be the same like before, but our feelings would always be strong and firm , because i know we both love each other , deeply from our hearts "

Back to update my blog once again, it's my off day today yet i didn't get to meet bf today

well it's either my off day and his off day doesn't click on the same day, sad right? I won't be seeing him next week too , my working timing also sucks because this week i've been working from 1pm to 10pm, where got time?! No time for myself too! That's very saddening things to say , in fact i'm working everyday please, well that's life , endure endure! :(

Well, today after for so long i finally get to meet Yuanting ! Not to forger her precious son too! :)

In fact this afternoon had been a great experience for me because i get to be Jayden's nanny for today! Carried him, fed him milk and played with him! I feel like motherly love hahaha! In the past, i used to hate babies, but after sometime i managed to overcome the fear, it's really a big experience for myself , i promised myself i ever had one , i would definitely be his/her best mum :) Anyway, congrats to my dear friend , for becoming mummy 2 now! Looking forward to see her baby no.2 ! :)

Alright, i shall end till here, will be back to update my space here, don't forget to formspring me! :)

Forgot those who are gone and remember those who is still here.

2011-07-07T23:06:00.005+08:00

New hair colour and fringe trimmed :)

Bought this pair of socks together with 2 pairs of shin chan for bf's hahaha!

Since i'm free and it's my off day today, decided to take this time to update my blog :)

It's the third week of me attaching to Amore Fitness, so far so good and i'm able to cope my job

love my lovely colleagues, they never fail to make me laugh or talk to me, hope everyday life fill with laughter and surprises :)

Anyway this morning, head over to hair artz studio to have my hair dye again, love the colour so much and had my trim fringed! Aftermath , headed over to bf's house and had pasta mania for our lunch since we're so lazy to go out so as usual pasta mania delivery :) Napped after we had our lunch, not long headed to panjang to get his mc but in the end , decided to give it amiss since we don't want to wait anymore, home sweet home then!

Meeting him tml and it's my half day at work tml, sianzzzz dislike working in the afternoon and do closing ;(((( nvm i shall endure with it :) Alright, i shall end till here, lazy to update my blog already, formspring me! :)

I love us having heart to heart talks even though when we're bored and we got nothing to do

lying on bed and having talks with each other, each time i laid beside you, i feel so close and heart warming when i'm with you, i love you my dear :') I hope we stay this way forever & counting on...

Treat people the way you want to be treated

2011-06-29T23:37:00.006+08:00

I'm back! I know i've not been updating my blog as often as i can but no worries, since today is my off day, i shall blog about this past few days what i've been doing. So far so good during attachment, have yet to encounter any big enquiry but most of the time i'll be petroling around the gym just n case any clients need assistance, have fun working with my colleagues! I hope throughout this four months i've a fun and joyful experience at Amore Fitness :)

Well as for today, finally i get to meet love :) Misses him as well ! Dined at sakae for our lunch/dinner earlier on, i was trying to book tickets online for transformer but to disappointment, my current posb bank card the one i'm using does not consist of 16 digit number and it's not a debit card, tried many times to book online and i was kinda fed up because i of my stupid bank card -.- shall make a trip down to change my card to debit card after work since i'm working half day tml! :D and also the day to know my june series exam results! Please show me some good sign , don't disappoint me my dear lovely results :(

alright! I shall end till here, remember to formspring me if you've any question ok and click on my ads if there's one! Thanks! :D

Happy Anniversary!

2011-06-21T04:25:00.003+08:00

Once again if you find this number damm familiar 21st June 2011 , here wishing this guy whom i love

"Happy One Year & Half Months!"

yes! Finally and after for so long, i get to see this number again :') I've so much to say during this period of time but i'll be back to post this blog again, stay tune ok! :) Hey love, i love you! Please keep my love secure! :D

Never expect, never assume, never ask, never demand to avoid disappointment.

2011-06-19T11:59:00.004+08:00

''I can’t explain how painful it is to wait for something that never comes. Never'

It's father's day today, happy father's day to all father ! :)

It's a home-stay sunday , suddenly turn so moodlesss and i don't know why, must be sunday blues! The whole of day, i did nothing ; it's either i spend more time with facebook and twitter

why life for now like getting so boring? Or me as a person too boring to handle? LOL

Tml is the day! A day to start my attachment at jurong point, i'm working at Amore Fitness Gym :) A great gym , strictly for females for this outlet, if you're keen in signing the package with Amore, come down to find me ok?! There's 2 outlet for both unisex , no worries for guys to come sign up the package too :D Give me a call or sms me for more detail! Excited yet nervous, mixed feelings :/

Anyway, i've been spending most of my time with my all time lover boy , you know who you are because i don't have to intro to you guys who he is, i know he read my blog because recently i saw him bookmark my blog, pretend never read only! Aiseh! hahahaha my loyal reader :) Ok you know i love you right? So sayang me more ok? hahahaha! Things have been great for us, i just hope we can stay like this , hope we dun regret this chances again because i believe we need to put down all our pasts and start afresh again and i put my faith and trust in you. Because i know, everyone deserve a second chance, one year and six months coming up and more to come i hope?

Everyday i'm shuffling ~

2011-06-13T21:22:00.004+08:00

I know i've not been updating as much as i can, well here's what i'm going to type it down

first of all, i was working for this 4 days of PC Show that happened last Thursday and it ended yesterday, well working in this new environment selling different products is awesome, why?! Because selling external hard disk is a new experience for me ! And not to forget a great partnership with my partner name Marcus and also the other following of different brands of external hard drive :) Hope to work with them again! && also, my fav boy came to fetched me from work! Thanks! :) It's been vvvvv long you last fetched me home from work, i missed every moments with you the most and i hope in the future you and i would be able to share our sorrows and problems with each other :)

Nothing much to elaborate, this few days life have been different for me but which is also a well adapting life for me, hope i'll able to work hard enough for my future and in less then 7 days time i'm starting my attachment soon, as this afternoon , headed down to Amore Fitness hq with Syakirah to sign our contact with the company, hope i learn many new experiences within the 4 months time, can't wait to start work soon! :) Good pay and also good job! :)

Alright, i shall end here! Formspring me if you have any question and not to forget to click on my ads! Much love!

Rejection doesn't hurt, expectation does. Lie doesn't kill, denial does. "Forget" doesn't heal, "forgive" does.

2011-06-04T13:18:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the lack of update, well i'm here again and with pictures too :)

anyway, it was SCSS floorball night yesterday so we where invited too! It's been so long we as a team meet up for a gathering and i really missed training with my girls, well hopefully there's one day we can play floorball again ! :) Floorball have been my favourite sports but it's just that i've stopped playing for a very long time, hoho

Anyway, i've been seeing jj very often now, things are back to normal , have been spending more time with him and hopefully there's more meet up soon i guess? :') Things have been working out fine, hope no quarrels or whatever please, love.

As for me, it was my last day having lessons with all beloved classmates because i'm graduating this year, two years have just passed so fast, i was wondering how we actually did it, missed all those memories at bb ite and also here, in 2 more days it'll be our final exam and so from there we will get to know if we're all going to further our studies or work, i really wanna further my studies either from higher nitec or poly, but i wanna go poly that badly, let's hope we all work hard for our goals, goodluck to all my FT mates! JIAYOU! ^^V

alright, that's all for today's post, will update again with more pictures! Stay Tune! :)

You were never a waste of time, just a harsh realization that I can do better.

2011-05-28T22:20:00.003+08:00

So in love with this heels but don't have my size! Does town selling this?

It's saturday today and i don't plan to go out as i don't have the mood to even step out of the house

prolly because i'm having period :( Period came twice in this month, though i'm abnormal -.- joke of the day, just trying to scare myself only tsk!

I like the way we spend the time with each other, i love the way we are now , i really do

i don't have to feel pressurize when i'm with you, just being myself and it seems like everything is back to the past, but with us starting afresh, i don't know if you realized you have changed so much from the past, i should be happy about it and yes i am. I let go of our past not because i'm scare of losing you, because i gave us a chance to start afresh, i don't want to repeat the same mistake again and again, just remember i'm always here for you if you needed me, i'll be there for you always. I promised and i give you my words.

你比从前快乐

2011-05-26T21:16:00.005+08:00

Back to 2009' , Just remember i'm always here

Back to my lil space here, i promise that i'll bring back pictures so here it is!

It's RSAF open house today and we only been there for one hour, good anot?! hehe!

Reason behind it was, we're were stucked at expressway along hougang , as there was an accident occurred , saw a hayabusa bike was crashed so badly, still thinking if the biker injured not, gosh i've phobia in sitting bike already, because ever since he pillion me, he ride until so fast especially he's rushing for work and sending me home asap, i can't maintain the feeling , scary ttm :/ i really can't maintain how it was like :/

Anyway, in 11 more days time it'll be exam period on the 6th and 7th june ; i can't imagine me finishing this course and start my industrial attachment, i'll be looking forward for june and hope everything goes smoothly for everyone and myself too, in good health and wealth too! :) Let's hope i can Ace good grades for FPD & SEN! jiayou Rebecca! ^^v

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I feel like a party animal today!

2011-05-23T07:57:00.007+08:00

my very first picture with you

The first thing when i'm on the blank page, my first thought was " what should i type today?" Can it more interesting? Well, i seriously wanna rant that badly , all readers should know i've formspring which is like very obviously and to that fucker, if you wanna type such questions relating to sexual harassment and insulating me , i recommend you to fucking state down your name ah? What has it to do with my ex or even me? Has that even to do with you? Fucking dirty mouth, don't let me find out who the fuck are you, got the guts to ask sch question, got the guts to state down your name, whoever it is you better becareful of your words, forever keep asking such question , are all sexual rumours really interest you guys? Really lor please maintain sia! -.-

Anyway, super pissed off over such issue and it's not the first time, i really am very pissed off now -.- Arghhh! :@

Things have been working pretty fine for me for this few days , i hope i can stay like this till forever

memories start to flash back to 2009 , really miss those times when i'm with you, Sometimes the feelings we start to have again, are feelings that never really went away in the first place, that's when i met you over and over again, I really wish to put down everything and start afresh with you, will you be able to do the same with me? Starting afresh together? I see a big drastic change in you, i am happy to see that and i hope we can stay this forever, hoping to give one another's chance to start afresh because all this while i still love you but i didn't show it at all. Used to be my favourite guy :')

Sometimes the best memory is the one which hurt you the most.

2011-05-20T01:46:00.004+08:00

Yes, if you're realized i'm single now and starting to be on my own now, i gave up the person that love me so much, treated me well then anybody else, i'm lost and being so regret but in the end, i choose to go back to my past because he is the only person i've connected so well, the one i share my joys and sorrows previously during that 11 months, ever since we broke up till now . we've missed being into one another's life, i feel that no matter how i bitch about him, saying a leopard never change it's spot, i still love him , because of the past we had we can never deny about it, i feel so lost not knowing what's happened, i never wanted anything ; because i was too stubborn to move on, i hurt the guy that love me so much just like that, yet he didn't take it too hard but to ask me to seek happiness , i should not compare but i'm following my heart now, i do it instead of lying to him and never the truth? No i don't want this to happened, i know i might be selfish but this is reality, i don't wanna run away from anything , no i don't this is not what i wanted it to be, no not now too

Being with jw we shared lots of good memories together, being in love with him for 3 months have made me learn lots of things in life but not as much as i'm with jj, i shouldn't compare with anybody else, he might hurt me but i still choose to stick with him, i'm suppose to make a wise choice but in the end , i'm going back to my past ; sigh

Some words are better left unsaid, and the truth inside better stays unknown.

2011-05-17T21:56:00.006+08:00

My heart is so fucking perfect because you are inside.

The baby carrier which i bought for bf's sis :)

Tibits which i bought yesterday!

I'm here to update again, because i'm so bored and while waiting for bf's reply

he just booked in to his camp and i'll be seeing again this sunday for his baby nephew's shower :)

we even bought present for his sis, hope she like it and convenient to her too

i just love going out with bf because we're easily satisfield and don't have to worry about anything

we see those things we like and we just bought it without hesitation, simply easy to satisfy hehe!

well, it's Vesak Day today which also means there's no school for today

i've been doing nothing except blogshopping and bought quite a few things online, suddenly feel so tempted to shop haha! Thanks to budget barbie ; qiuqiu! :) after watching her video and her guides in online shopping for great bargain, it really helps! :)) All credits to her! (Y)

so meanwhile, got to wait for my parcel and i'm so looking forward to it! Will take pictures once i've received it! :)

alright i shall end here, will update again once i've more pictures with me! Stay tune! Please remember to click on my formspring and my ads ok! Bye!

She's not beautiful. Its called foundation, concealer, eyelashes.

2011-05-14T09:15:00.008+08:00

My current hair, did natural wave :)

My botak chiang! W.O wannabe! :)

Hey everybody, sorry for the not updating my blog as often as i can

well you know, i'm lazy to update provided i've tons of pictures to share with you guys but before that, to get 24 hours updated , follow me in twitter or add me in fb if you wanna know more what i've been doing this few days, as you all know yesterday was 13th the friday which also means......

My big monster have booked out from camp hehe! :) Feel so happy because it's like finally after 2 weeks, this is his first book and i'm sure the following future, i'll count down to his book out days, attend his POP and aftermath , ORD! :D

As for today, met up with bf and we caught Fast 5 ! awesome shit! So in love with their ost! (Y)

i wanna watch fast 5 again! after the movie, went over to ngee ann city to meet up with bf's brother

then headed to bugis, sad to said i only got myself one YSL top, i would have expect to buy more loots home but sad to say, nothing really caught my eyes except that leopard top which is the one which caught me love at first sight, so regret for not buying ! :( nvm shall haunt down for that soon!

although bf have already booked out, we spend so little time together ;'( we actually had a small tiff all thanks to me , i've a very bad temper which i needed to change away my bad habit, i'm sorry for throwing tantrum to you, sorry for not being understanding towards to you :( I'm sorry!

Went separate ways with bf as he is heading to bedok to meet his friend while i went to orchard to meet De An for awhile and headed back home and immediately when i reached home, i smelled chicken rice! :))))

alright, i shall end till here and i shall head back to my bed now, nights! , formspring me and click on my ads!

Nike Goddess 5K Run 2011

2011-05-08T10:36:00.008+08:00

For more pictures, go to my fb and check it out! :)

Anyway, this pictures were took yesterday at Marina Barrage for this Nike 5K Goddess Run

it was hell awesome, basically it's just all women running and was sponsor by Nike

Have fun with my fellow classmates as usual in helping out in this event, love the volunteer t-shirt! :) So we girls were were put in charge of the changing area, so yea just sit there anc chit chat.

It's only Day 6 now and i feel like everything it's so different from me but well you know, i'm alil to crazy to even counting down the days when bf is in camp, i know for sure he is gonna sign on so meaning he get that 8 to 5 just for me! You tell me is this good or bad thing? Hope he pass his IPPT tml! Goodluck! :) Awaiting and looking forward for his first book out next friday, misses!

It's Mother's day today! Happy Mother's Day to all mummys out there, i love my mum even though we can quarrel like nobody's business, what you have gone through is what i've gone through too but not as much as you do, i know previous incident made you broke your heart in million pieces but you still accept the fact and be there for me, i'm sorry for disappointing you many times yet you still gave me chances to correct it and prove it, looking after me for 18 years and in returm, i'm gonna make myself work harder in my job and give both you and daddy a better life so that you can retire as a housewife and go oversea as and when you like :') I love you! :)

Life doesn't come with instructions, so why live as if it also comes with rules?

2011-05-04T21:03:00.005+08:00

Pictures of us during the past 2 months, part of remembering those good times we had, i love you my dear :')

Don't know where to start , i have alot of things i wanna talk about it . Anyway, it's only the second day for my dear mr shawn chiang in camp now, i actually just cried after receiving his sms and i got 3 missed calls from him! It's only the second day and i already feel so miserable, he had fever ytd and that mades me heartbreaks 10 times, this guy of mine could not be afford to be sick! I miss bf now! sigh and i hope his IPPT next monday to be pass! So coincidence that yuanting's husband is actually is bf's bunkmate! :) I shall go down with her to their camp on their book out day which is on next friday! I can't wait to see him! My dear, please hang on there ok?! love you always!

Anyway, school was great today ; all three phase tests have been cleared so right now, i should focus on my projects which is the due date coming soon and i've yet to do anything, which is why i always like to do on last min , i'm so lazy! Acually there's nothing much happended going on during school because it's all about revisions, reprimanding us about our I.A , so on and so fore

Alright, i shall end till here and now it's all about texting with bf now, will update more when i'm free ok! Stay tune! :)

Do it because you want to, not because you want something in return

2011-05-01T22:47:00.004+08:00

I'll be your wish, i'll be your dream , i'll be your fantasy

It's the first day of a new month, which also means that 2 more days for me to meet up with bf

because he is enlisting to ns on 3rd May, how fast cna it be? Well, sooner or later i've still gonna face it up, of course i can't bear to part with him and i'm sure i'm going to hand on there for 2 weeks till he book out, it's gonna be a challenging start for the both of us, this isn't something new to me , in fact whatever happens now, i've already gone through before , still ain't bad for me but for the part that i'm actually gonna miss bf alot more because this is the first time we actually have come to this far that both of us have face a new challenge, i'm pretty sure we both will hang on there and i'll wait for him for 2 years, that 2 years means alot to me from wednesday onwards till he ORD, or maybe another 3 more years if he sign on, i know he want to give me the best out of best and i really appreciate what he've done to me, i love you my dear :')

Weekend coming to an end but fear not, tml don't need to attend school so meaning.... i'm meeting bf and the couple tml! Town for movie! And i shall make full use of tml to take lots of pictures with bf before he shave botak :( More pictures would be up soon, stay tune for this week update!!! :0 FORMSPRING ME :D

We fear rejection, want attention, crave affection and dream of perfection.

2011-04-29T22:13:00.006+08:00

Just with that flow, i barely can touch it ;

Love of my life ; 20th February 2011

I know i've not been updating my blog but i also know that not much people would actually read my blog, hmmm but anyway this is not important , just wanna rants something

received my second warning letter from school earlier on just now, my only subject that has not been attending is S.W , wts la seriously , i really hate the tapping system ever since it's started when we just moved in , you come for school and tap late, they would put into consideration together with the letter, this is my second warning letter and by the time i really hope i don't get any third letter, if not i'll get debarred! OMG which i don't want to happen la! :(

anyway, i've a good news oto made and this happened 2 days ago , guess what?! I got selected by Amore Fitness for my industrial attachment! i'm so happy that i got accepted right after the interview which i went down with Radin and Syakirah on that day, basically we actually keep bragging about that we won't be selected or either one of us as we talked about this on our way home, suddenly Syakirah received a text from Ms Jaime that she got accepted and the two of us went to check out phones, we screamed with joy because it's so unexpected that we three got this job hahaha! A moment of joy to celebrate, so for now gonna get ready for June period , omg i can't believed that it actually happened :D Thank you! :))) So will start of being a floor trainer first and follow by personal trainer :)

So for now, one more day to end of April, how fast the time can past and i missed those past

i never thought i would come to this far , having so many obstacles on my own and i've to handle this alone but i also do have my family and friends be there for me , be it ups or downs on my relationship with bf , i know sometimes we have miscommunication , this is good why? So that we both know each other fully wel enough, to have a stable relationship, two months plus together and i've seen to known more about him more, he needs and he wants ; i know we faced alot of ups and downs but you never throw me down the cliff to let me suffer but instead you hold me back and handle this together, i know sometimes i said those hurftful words to you but you never seems to take it at heart, you're always trying to be the best for me , always giving in to me upon knowing how much pain you have to suffer, cried silently not wanting to let me know because you afraid that i might leave you again but the truth is, i just want your attention to see how much you love me but now, i've known you enough, there's time we quarreled like nobody's business , after all this times we spend, i just can't bear to separate with you when you're going NS soon but i told you, you should be proud of me that i can handle this on my own, because of the mutual trust we had with each other, i love you my dear boy :') Thanks for everything, we're going to go through this together :))

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2011-04-26T19:22:00.001+08:00

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For every beauty there's an eye to see it

2011-04-22T11:29:00.010+08:00

All pictures at fb, go check it out :D

Overdues pictures with bf :)

Good morning! It's good friday today which also means.................No school for me ! hehe :)

A long weekend to rest , but kinda sad that my pay day have not enter in my bank ._. ccb lor

keep drag and drag, that's the reason why i hate to work when they're not on time to give you your pay on time, tsk there's so many things i wanna buy ok, sian ah FML

Well as for today, went over to F1 pit building to helped out an event for J.P Morgan Corporate Challenge 2011 , it was the best volunteering work with the april intake '2010 and some of my classmates, reason was that we're actually suppose to help put at the water point station but we didn't do anything because they didn't set up and it was a last min plan so we're just merely chit chatting for that three hours and the best part was $20 straight in your pocket hehe! ;D Ok la last few part still ok because we helped out with the baggage side and it was chaotic! WHY? Too many crowd and they're like pushing each other afriad that their bags would lost ._.

But overall, had fun hanging out with some of the coolest people in fitness training haha! :D

As for now, congrats to bf's sis in the arrival of her newborn baby boy, yeah! (Y) Told bf to take more pictures of her baby, i wanna see! Gonna go visit her when i'm free :D

alright i shall end till here, formspring me! ;D

Happy Second Monthsary!

2011-04-20T18:37:00.008+08:00

Best of my life in 2011 :')

Well, as you all know today is 20th which also mean....... Happy Second Month to my bf! YEAH! :)
hahahaha! in case you're wondering, why am i at home and not go and celebrate with him, well my beloved grandfather had surgery today and my heart was pain because although it's not a major but minor but still god please bless him ok? The whole morning i was cocked up by all this mixed feeling and i wasn't really feeling good, just thinking about how is his surgery etc. But now mum had went to visit him so hoping to hear good news, god please bless him to get well soon :')

Caught Justin Bieber's Never say never movie with bf yesterday, awesome! (Y) Although i'm not a fan of JB hahaha!

anyway, school for this week is like kind of slack? But my attendance for S.W really can go bang wall, i hope i don't receive another warning letter. But seriously SW for swimming all the time is really cmi la, i dun want to go swimming with so many people! :((( Hope that i won't receive any more of this warning letter, thank you very much!

Nothing much to update about my life, it went perfectly fine with the guy i didn't regret being with even how hard our ups and downs are, i'm sure for once everything would be fine, i hope maybe 5 years or 10 years down the road, i'll be walking down the aisle with him hand in hand, ahahhaah!

ok la that one we shall see what happen after 5 years hahaha! He's a great guy with man of his words, i won't give him 10/10 because no one is perfect here :) I know he dote me more then himself hahaha! alright, i shall end here, formspring me ok!

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If you're not the one, who else then?

2011-04-17T10:57:00.008+08:00

It's sunday morning, wide awake and feel good but i don't want weekend to end so fast :(

which means i left about 15 more days before i bid goodbye to bf , awwww saddedning much , hahahaha!

Anyway, meet up with him ytd , intended to meet up with Yanling & Kevin but they couldn't make it so me and bf still go with the plan , met him at Plaza sing and had lunch at ljs

aftermath, he suggested to look for his mum at town but you know, i was kinda shy to meet his mum althought i've met her once together with his elder brother, haha!

So we walked around town and did nothing , merely just window shopping :( Stupid payday haven come, sian i wanna get my Dr. Martens boots! Perm my hair :) New phone! Just for your info, yours truly pay for her own expenses, don't really depend on parents nw but unless i'm running out of cash and this totally scare me out :(

Went to have my fringe cut and eyebrow trim, thanks bf for the acc :) Alright, i shall end till here, formspring me ok?! All questions will be answer :D Thanks!

Do what you want like nobody else is watching

2011-04-15T22:34:00.005+08:00

TGIF! no lesson for today but a full dress rehearsal as this coming monday, it's our school official opening which means PM Lee Hsien Loong is coming to our school and with the rest of the important people and which means our whole FT department are doing the body combat and media everything will target on us, ok honestly speaking i've never done anything big event other then in sec school but this was the whole school event ah, nervous and anxious , mixed feeling :(
But whatever it is, let's get things over and done with and hope everything on that day goes smoothly! woot!

Over the body combat is fun and tiring, best part was we learn alot of punches and kicks, can't follow the beat of the movement! shall post a video for you guys to see! Stay tune! :)

anyway, it's been a 4 days i've meet up with bf, suddenly got a news from him about him enlisting to NS on the 3rd May, awwww :( On that particular day, i'm schooling and i don't think i'm able to send him off to camp, awwww :( But i've already gone through this process before so i guess i'm able to handle this again? I hope he can get 8 to 5 after he pop , we left about 17 more days to his NS :( very sad ok, sigh :( nvm i'll wait for you my dear!♥ :')

alright, i shall end till here! Formspring me ok! Love ya all! :D

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2011-04-11T15:09:00.001+08:00

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Double dates

2011-04-10T19:17:00.010+08:00

It's sunday today and it's raining cats and dogs now, just came back home not long ago

second uncle send us back home and hell madness, i dare not sit his car anymore although it's fun, his driving skill power pack, anytime can fly out , this keep me the motivation to start enrolling to bbdc asap! i just can't wait hehe :D

well for yesterday, bf came over to my house ! Invited the couple : Yanling & kevin over my house , intended to have drinking session at my house but it turn out that we had a round of L4D2 together! This time is with bf! :) he cooked both lunch & dinner for me & sissy and not to forget our guests! :) I feel like i've just married him , laughed! A simple yet lovely saturday spend with someone special hehe! Feel blessed :)

Hope he enjoyed himself this two days, i hope we spend enough time for each other because i know we left not much time together, treasuring what's left behind, thanks bf for everything all this while, no amount of words to express how i feel towards him, just very one word : Blessed :')

school reopening tml! I just got no more for school tml and definitely not looking forward for it, i wish things could fast forward a little to see the outside world,sometimes i would like to take a slow stroll along the beach to reminiscence what has happened during the past of my life, i might not be able to take the truth but i know for that particular one day, someone would be there for me , be it rain or shine no matter what happens , i'll still have to face the truth. I really got to thanked him for making who am i today, not because of the past we had, but because of who am i today, with the guy i love that always be there for me , happiness with no heartbreaks, if he is able to handle my past and flaws, he definitely worth being love by me, to face the truth together

because i know, it's worth living it......

Thank you for all this while baby, the tolerance and everything that happened between us because you know, i love you so

I'm not plastic, if you're looking for one, go find a barbie doll

2011-04-07T23:17:00.010+08:00

Weekends are coming and it's been a week i last meet my boy, i seriously miss him and is it just a beginning , a few more weeks and it'll be 5th May, the day when he enlist to NS , i hope he can drag more of his time to meet me soon, the times we spend together is getting shorter and lesser, sorry for not being there for you when you needed, sorry my dear :/ So near yet so far :'(

Earlier on, i suggested to him in getting a secind new love but this time i'm going to design a matching ones for the both of us and he shall re-consider my idea hahaha! I definitely marry this guy already i tell you, just kidding! :) Who knows we're only together for a month and have yet to reach a year but i'm sure and definitely he'll give me happiness, i don't need any perfection in our relationship, i just want us ; Ever thine ; ever mine ; ever ours , just the two of us ♥

I shall work extremly hard to be his full time gf , every time without fail even if we quarrelled , for sure i'll definitely hurt my words to him yet he didn't mind for long as i'm happy, he didn't get mad at me, in fact he dote me more then himself, he don't shower me with gifts but with his upmost love :')Whenever i'm down, i'll always browse through our pictures because of the smile and his looks , bf thanks for everything ; Shawn Chiang, i love you! :')

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Sometimes you have to be a bitch to get things done

2011-04-06T15:48:00.004+08:00

How does it feel like catching a snowflakes? - pixie Lott

My all time favourite girl - Yanling :)

My blood ; <3

It's Tuesday afternoon and i'm doing nothing, just watched finished my movie : Sex & the city nothing seems to keep me interested on , i've not done my projects! I kept delaying and hopefully my fingers stop typing to twitter and facebook ! But i can't help, arghhh! So irritated! As promised i told myself i won't be going out this week but that's a lie! I met up with my all time favourite girl : Yanling :D I've always have fun going out with her, i can't wait for this sat night with the three of them including my bf! ;) Mum going overseas ;) hehe! ^^v

The thought of staying at home together with the humid weather seriously damm kick sia! I need a really super cold bath after updating my blog! This is annoying! :@ Less then 5 days it's school reopening! Arghhh ! I hate the thought of going back school and wish we could fast forward to our attachements and graduation :( Hope april would be good to us ;D

alright, i shall end here , i'm so frustrated already! Update you all about my saturday with the three awesome people! :) Click on my ads & formspring me! :D

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2011-04-05T12:11:00.001+08:00

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Take your life with responsibility

2011-04-04T13:36:00.005+08:00

Overdue picture of us ; hi handome tallie!

This guy have been calling me china girl ever since the first day of work, thanks for your ginger milk tea ahhaah! thanks ah hope we keep in touch! :D

My karkis! hahahaha! Thanks for those entertainment you guys gave, hope we keep in touch again soon! Presenting all the different brands promoters ;D

It's monday today and also my off days! hahaah! Nah i'm offically stop working after the two weeks roadshow , i've starting to missed all my fellow colleagues promoters :( The great people i've made friends with for that two weeks, it passed so fast just like that, hope to see all the uncles promoters one of the days :) Never fail to meet up with them for lunch and chit chat about life, that's when i call life :)

Have not been meeting my baby boy this few days ever since i've started to work, i'm sorry :(

i wanna take this one month to cherish every moments i had with him and try to meet him up whenever i'm free before he go in to ns, awwww i missed those times when he came down personally to look for me when i was working with my all time favourite koi! :( ok la stop complaining, he ain't bad ok just that this few days keep quarreled over nonsencical stuffs ._.

awaiting for pay day from now onwards, hoseh ah! I'm so gonna enrol to bbdc this month, you wait only! So, this is how i'm going to spend this weeks , stay at home and do PROJECTS! cb why so many projects sia, how to finish?! haish :( sad si wo! poly will be my first priority now, i really really wanna go poly that badly and i shall stop studying for three years if i get into poly , but will i ever had the chance ? :( My gpa seriously sucks la :( boo boo! :( SIGH :'(

alright, i shall end till now and i'm bored! i shall take a break then, bye! Remember to formspring me! I think my nuffnang die already because nobody is reading, aiya whatever it is formspring me ok! Muacks!

HAPPY APRIL FOOL!!

2011-04-01T23:47:00.004+08:00

Bored at work O.o

Bought this three dresses from amk earlier on at the price of one piece $ 10 , any three $28

i'm selling away the first piece on the left hand side for $10, anyone want formspring me :D

This box of chocolate which the secuity uncle give me end up i was sick for four days! Diahorrea straight for 4 days :(

Happy working with other brands of promoters, come down AMK atrium ! ;D

It's the start of a new month and again, i hope everything goes smoothly but no point repeating the same thing when shits happened, people come and goes but life still goes on. Right?! What's the point but in the end things keep repeating like itself over and over again, aren't all of you sick and tired of it? Arghhhhh! So fed up with everything that doesn't work smoothly, i don't mind going back to the past even if it is how hard it can be, or how horrible my ex can be, i dont mind if it hurts, because there's when i know my love grew stronger just for him , but whatever happened shall let it go......

Anyway, it's the second last day of the roadshow, i seriously can't wait for it to end you know!!!! It's so tiring and i barely have ample rest! FMLFMLFMLFML! everything is about money money money!!!!! :( Money can't buy happiness :( LUXURY! ENTERTAINMENT! :((((( I don't have much time to do whatever i wants because the two weeks will be school reopen! i've no time to meet bf anymore and i hope he can be understanding enough la, arghhhh!

Bf have been coming down to fetch me without fail, thanks love! But i'm so busy like a bumble bee working like nobody business, hope that freak two weeks roadshow end like now! :( ok shall upload pictures! byebye!

Empire state of mind

2011-03-26T06:52:00.004+08:00

Same company ; same top! PHILIP!

LOVE of my life

All time favourite!

ICE CREAM!

It' 6.52am and i'm awake at such timing to blog, well have been very busy this few days, reason behind it was, i'm currently working for 2 weeks roadshow at amk hub, if you guys past by amk, do drop by and find me k?! :) Whenever i'm back home, i'm already in my low batt position, too tired and i didn't get to have off days, meaning i've to work 2 weeks straight without off days, advantage is : you can earn alot of commission for your pay, overall you can get maybe 1k?! it depends yea? Disadvantage : Work alone, boring , restless with not enough sleep, have to serve customers one by one if there's a big crowd :(

Can you imagine how small the atrium is? First few days chiong all the way but behind behind, slack already :( But i'm not done yet, bf have been coming over on and off even after he kana fire by his boss hahahaha! Yesterday, he surprises me with KOI! omg! Was kinda touched and shocked because he didn't confirmed with me that he is coming, saw him together with Xuan Wei. Ass lor, took half and hour break and watched them played pool at the nearby coffeeshop just above it, cool huh? Go there watched free show ahaha! Not to forget, he always send me home after my work ends, hehe! Make quite a few friends with the promoters that are working, partly all of them are males and four ladies around :( sad si, thought would have more females.. Have been eating non stop while working haha! I should treat their durian pancake like soon! yumm!

Nothing really much happened except some small personal family issues, and again it's forever the same topic, no choice why in the beginning if i didn't take much aware of it, things won't happen like this and things won't happened when my life is filled with this, anyway forget it ba what done has been done, i can't no longer feel hatred anymore, moreover 4 months has past, what's the point hating someone when he doesn't show concern towards it? Waste my time ....

and oh yea! Wanted to enrol myself to bbdc but i realised if i register online, i've to prepare all those necessary within de date after 5 days, clever me straight away exit the page, i'm stress in deciding whether to take Class 3 or Class 3A , many people say take manual better because at least can drive auto and manual cars, but the problem is i've no confidence in taking manual and sure enough to fail :( I wanted to take private but i know alot of disadvantges :( Good thing is that you pay lesser ! I hope i can stick to the one i really wanted and not keep changing my mind, arghhhhhh!

It's 7.05 now, shall head back to sleep before i'm charged full for work later! Do click on my ads if there's any and formspring me! Ask me anything please! Thanks!

Happy 1st Month!

2011-03-20T23:31:00.003+08:00

Happy 1st Month, bf! :) * Typo error on the year hahaha! lucky i managed to changed it :)

Reached home one hour ago and i hereby wishing bf a Happy 1st Monthsary! ;) I love you my dear! Although we've been quarreling for the past few weeks, it made our relationship and our feeling grow stronger, i believe we'll make it through for our near future, thanks for always trying to make me happy and never fail to be there when i needed you, will you do the same when we're old in the future? Hehehe! I'll be the stars and you shall be the moon ;D Know why? Coz stars always attract attention ahahahahah! ok lame!

anyway, we went over to marina barrage with his friends, picnic! ;D awwww, it's my first time flying kite but actually i didn't even fly kite ah, i'm shy hahahaha! the one that i bought it on my birthday and didn't get the chance to use it, finally managed to use it today and i enjoyed myself but my throat seems to be so dry! arggghhhhh! aftermath, bf send me home :D Thanks and i hope you like the book that i gave you, touched not! hahaha! where's mine ah?! i waiting for you pressie and de make up of our 1st month, i think i somehow got the hint from you ;D

alright, shall end till here ; work tml! arghhhh! gonna wake up early tml! byebye! come visit me at amk hub basement 2! :D

It's saturday morning, what's up yo?!

2011-03-19T11:45:00.006+08:00

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love, rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride

The stuffs that mum bought, there's still of the rest but didn't take the pic

Love to be loved by you, the one & only ; my sweetest sweet escape

Mum is back! hehe so happy, reached sg at 3am and i remembered myself waking up to see if mum have returned from her trip but surpringsly i woke up at 8am and i saw many many clothes & bags for both me and sissy hehe ! mad happy, love the Authentic Anna Sui & Agnes B bag :D thanks mum ;D i wanna go HK too! :((( hope to have a getaway badly, don't wish to stuck in sg! :( But in the meantime, i wanna meet bf as long as i can before he really enlist to ns ( ok i know i've mentioned this alot of time, aiya you guys don't know the la! ) :(((( wish we have plenty more time to spend with each other :'(

anyway, i'm having holiday now! weet you weet! which means ...... not to relax but to finish all my assignments! :( boo boo! i hate doing projects please, got to crack my brain and i wish i could finish the projects on time! Will be starting work this coming monday for two consecutive weeks at amk hub, do come and support me ok! :D Will be working 2 weeks roadshow and i'm gonna spam koi! swee! hehe! bf will be coming over to fetch me home hehe makes me happy girl! love love him! xoxo! ;D

alright, that's all for today! Can't wait for tml! hehe you know i know? let's guess what day is tml! bye all readers! will bloged again tml! click click! :D

Tell me that you love me then why do you leave me? Please cry me a river

2011-03-17T10:26:00.006+08:00

I told myself i can't put in a position to think of myself to treat you like how i treat my ex, pampering him , shower him my love with all my might ; with all the hurts and hatred that was worthwhile, until i met you ; i believe our love would be strong and we're going to walk through this together, we might not have a perfection in our relationship but i put my 100% love to you , me and you will go through this together, you might not give me the best love but i can assure you will give me happiness instead of sorrows & sadness :')

It's thursday morning and i'm suppose to be in school but i'm not, no lessons for today hehe!
oh my, i miss bf already, had so much fun with him yesterday as he was at my house to keep me company, played webcam with him haha! Stupid ass, sometimes he can piss me off and make me love him even more, wah lao! Why i got such bf ? hehe ! 3 more days to our 1st month, so fast can! He know what i wanna give him when i didn't even tell him, wth spoil my plan :( haha! i can't wait for the surprise that he gonna give me!!!!!!!!! EGG-CITED! :D

I wish we can spend more time together before he went in to NS :( i feel so bad whenever he insist of meeting me whenever he knock off from his work and yet i didn't make de effort to meet him, sorry honey! :( i wonder how am i suppose to cope with my life when he is in army/navy? i wish everything goes smoothly as well as for those i love the most.

anyway, got to buy quite a few things for this sunday event when i suggest to bf to his friends since it's our 1st month together why not hold a fly kite session at marina barrage hehe! :D and they agree! yes ah! more gathering with his friends :D the more the merrier ^^v

not to forget, i miss mum :'( she is enjoying her life with her friends la! so good, i wish i can tag along la, tsk! anyway tml is my shcool holiday already hehe! :D i must took this time to finish all my projects as i won't be so free for that 2 weeks roadshow at amk :( sian! :((((((

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Once a cheater, always a cheater.. they never stop!

2011-03-13T11:35:00.006+08:00

Once bitten ; twice shy ;

It's sunday today, time flies and mum is leaving Singapore in a few hours time, going overseas with her friends, good life lor, tsk! Jealous much haha! :) Gonna miss her so much as she's away for entire one week, omg can die sia! :( Which means....., i got to help to do household chores, sad die me! :( Hope sis help also la, but all the while i pushes everything to her hehe ;)

12/03/2011 ; Yesterday

went over to suntec for second round of IT fair, this time with dad & sis, dad wanted to buy new phone for me, but i can't decide to buy bb or iphone 4 but in the end, told dad that i can wail till august or sept for iphone 5 to come out and i'm also not in the rush to change a new phone, moreover i've always been texting bf and friends, although i've de urge to change but after thinking, maybe i should wait abit longer haha! But singtel service at IT fair siibei fucked up, not only they're not honest to their customer just because they wanna earn commission , they got attitude problem , dad was so angry yesterday and he fought with one salesperson, knowing it's her fault yet she still dare to yaya papaya and in the end the manager apologise and gave my father $30 taka voucher haha! Nice and dad bought Nokia N8 for himself.

Moral of the story, if you ever come across such situation, just fight for your own right, because customer is always right! Agree?! :)

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After so many heartbreaks and tears, you didn't bother to come back to my side and neither do you apologise , i thought you was my favourite boy when we were together but this made me realised how foolish am i to suffered all this shits all by myself, you definitely not going to regret because i suppose the next person won't be that lucky anymore, is you didn't cherish me in the past so no point getting jealous over somthing that you once had in the past, is your greatest loss and i hope karma really strike it on you. I was too foolished that i thought i could love you longer but i was wrong, i thought you have changed when we were back together, no i was so wrong. Thanks for ruining to much of my happiness and my future, THANK YOU!

Don't spend your time looking at what you left behind cause you'll miss what's waiting for you ahead.

2011-03-12T00:01:00.003+08:00

Because i love you , SCJW :D

It's 12am now, time past so fast and 8 more days to our 1st monthsary this coming sunday, can't believe i'm with Shawn for two weeks plus and we're hitting our 1st month tgt , awww :')
He might not give me a perfection in our relationship, but i know he can give me happiness :') Thanks for tolerating my temper and has never ever give up on me even though i feel like giving this relationship yet he pulled me back , he never fail to be there for me when i needed him the
most, this is what i call love and trust between each other :) He can piss me off, made me vomit blood when talking to him , allow me to do whatever i want but he never stop loving me hehe :D
i've already have an idea what to buy for our 1st month, hehehe! He sure like it and scream like one siaolang hehe :D

11/03/2011 ; Yesterday

went to meet bf at woodland , had our lunch & train-ed to city hall as we're going to IT Fair then
but before that, went over to Raffles City robinson Laneige to find Joanna :) It's been long we seen each other, did some catch up and thanks for the sample! ;D gonna try using it soon hehe ;D
walked over to suntec, hell lots of people! Chance upon many people, went over to Star Hub to look for Bing Jun haha! went over to look for phones, arghh! Dad promise me that he'll get me iphone 4, hope he mark his words! :x

walked around and i was having pms when my period was over =.= Photo shooting with bf, cui.com , fail but funny hahaha! really enjoyed going out with bf because i find that everytime when we meet up, we never fail to make so much noise and laughed like nobody business when we're at public hehe :) Aftermath, headed back to Raffles City, walked past Cartina Watches to find Winson as he's working there haha!

Home sweet home at 9 plus :) Alright, i shall post the pictures now:) FORMSPRING ME! Thanks :D

I might not be the best but i'll be your last

2011-03-08T19:14:00.003+08:00

Never promise something to someone if you'll never gonna make it.

Congrats to Nina & her team for getting first in the U-21 woman's game! :)

Over-dues pictures taken on last sunday for Floorball faceoff held at Bugis national library

more at fb! :)

endless argument with bf every now and then, are all aquarius like me so impatient and like to find faults with people? While he himself pisces always like to give in to anything? We are weird people :O No wonde he always so sensitive la, wah lao! Tsk! trying my best to stop finding fault with him and at the same time trying my best to meet up with him before he enlist to Ns :( still thinking should i go Malaysia with him or chalet organise by his friend to so call celebrate it for him :O

Goodluck to bf later! He's taking up bike license! R1 ! yes ah! ^^v happy for him hehe! :) hope his bro dun so niao jing la, share share abit with him, always bully him ._. as for me, i'm taking up car by end of this year, saving money start right yesterday but i bet you, after 5 days later i sure give up :( someone got to keep me motivate by saving up money! if would be good if both of us got one license soon! weet you weet! can't wait can't wait! ^^v

No one would ever put themselves in a position to even spare a thought for me, who can be so ensure of past history that happened 3 months ago won't repeat again? My safety? who can be so confident and tell em straight in my face that things won't happen like the past? Not me, not even you, god and not even my mum. Don't just cui gong lanpa song only please ._.

I hope we can change for the better, tired of fighting , i want to be fought for. Im tired of caring, i want to be cared for, I'm tired of being just me, i wanna be yours.

Don't worry, just breath. If it's meant to be, it will find it's way

2011-03-05T23:04:00.004+08:00

I wanna be the girl who you mark me your first priority ;

More pictures in facebook! :)

I'm back! The night was awesome with bf and classmates hehe! Although too happening on that day, helped to take care of drunkards and i was so scare ah, i don't know how to handle such situation :x Thank god bf was with me haha! :D Had fun on that day , yeah! :) Hope bby bf enjoyed himself too and did i tell you about him cutting bangs? omg! So cute can! Tsk! :D insert many many hearts hehe! awesome! ^^v

as usual, ton the whole night and try to catch some sleep when you realised there's too much puking noises surrounding you, depressing much and i'm scare please ._. Instead of being tired, i was too energetic for the next event haha! Enough of typing, pictures do the talkings then! :D

and did i metioned that earlier on today, when i was alighting the bus , i accidentally placed my last finger on the door and it kiap my finger sia, fuck! Stuck and i couldn't take it out, i almost went crying and i was alone too, i went to call for help and thanks to those guys kind soul actually helped me pull out if not i'll be like the 127 hours movie, whereby my hand amputated :'( scary ttm please ! :'( thank god it's just a minor injury and those serious mental type, if not i've already lose one pinkie :( Next time cannot use that finger to hook promises haha! :)

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Happy 20th Ignasia! (Y)

2011-03-04T19:42:00.003+08:00

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It's 4th March today,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IGNASIA! :D (Y)

Thanks for being there for me during my most difficult period of time, lending me a listening ear. Not forgetting Sherlyn, JY , Helen , Zi Qun , Miss Jaime and the rest, no one truly understand what i'm going through during the tough period, you girls made my life filled with colours and made me stand up from where i fall , never fail to cheer me up with encouraging words, i might not be good with words but i sincerly wanna thanks you guys and i appreciate your care & concern :) No amounts of words & trust can build with this friendship :') I hope when we graduate, our friendship can maintain like how we are now :') Thanks girls :')

party like an animal! (Y)

2011-03-04T18:31:00.003+08:00

TGIF today!!!! :D Which means ........ toning tonight with all FT mates at sentosa later on :D FTW! \m/ dear bf is coming later with us, hope i stop quarreling with him , perhaps heart to heart talk later? This few days have been quarreling with him over unnessesary suffs and i'm so stress over our relationship which i nearly got into depression, i blamed him for not understanding me enough, i don't why i keep wanting to pick a fight with him, but he didn't blamed me for all this, until when i realised when he told me that he have tried so hard to understand me and i'm hurting him, till then i realised i've start to push him away. I'm sure both of us can overcome this relationship, i hope i myself can control my temper towards all this small little things, he always give in too much to me but for always i feel that wasn't enough, i'm selfish towards myself and i don't bother about him, but because of all this fights i realised it definitely be worth it because i know he cares and he never stop showing that he love me , that resulted me to be softhearted again. Dear bby bf, i hope we can maintain our relationship and i will try my best to be a good gf of urs :') xoxo!

No matter how hard we try to cover those pains and scar we used to have, it's never enough to be coverd because the pain which within us, we call that the long term pain.It will always be there ;

f you're planning to lie to me, at least make sure I don't find out the truth.

2011-03-02T17:15:00.003+08:00

Because i love you so....

45 mins more to bf knocking off from work, so missed him :(
can't stop gl-ed him haha! He's too dummy to know which language i'm talking and he too, made me feel like giving up talking to him by making me vomit blood ._. Meeting him in a while and we're heading to IMM Giant to get food for this friday ton at sentosa with FT mates & him, yeah! :D
Hope he will enjoy meeting my classmates since he is not those shy type of guy haha! Cute ^^

It's the second day of March, time past so fast without realising it, 3 months have past ever since from 24th November 2010, the day when i gone for surgery. If you asked me how do i feel right now, same answer lost & guilty. Too much to described how i feel right now. I'm still fine, moving on with my life, i hope i don't regret whatever happen in my life, i hope when i fall there's someone to hold on to me and not let me go. Time change, people left out from your life but life still goes on eventually. I hope this apply to my life from now not today but the day i start to move on.

This might be too personal to me but i still chose to type it here. Seeing friends happily get married , have baby, it made me feel so warmth to start a family and choosing the right husband, i envy such life . I told myself, if i ever get pregnant and be a mummy in 3 or 5 years or maybe 10 years down the road, i would definitely give the best for my next child, i will because he/she deserve to be treated well from me, moreover it's my own blood , i don't want the same thing to happened again, i will give my very best to start off with a family with my dear husband if i ever get marry :')

I shall end till here now, update when i got pictures! :D click on my ads & formspring me! Much appreciated! Ask me anything! :)

My plan is to forgive and forget. Forgive myself for being stupid, and forget your fucking irrelevant existance.

2011-02-27T23:00:00.005+08:00

It's sunday today , thank god i'm not working for this weeked and next weekend too :) But i'm still considering if i should hold two jobs right now? My this current weekend job really too much slacking for me already, i wanna to do something different but nothing seems to interest me, the income i'm currently earning does really cover much for my transport at all, seriously i wonder if i should really change a job lor, i don't mind working after school hours because most of the time my lesson end at two to three plus, earliest will be at 11.30am. I wanna work for upcoming IT Fair during March period, but the respond to it , is very fast don't think still got vacancy available lor, saddieme :( But if anyone got any lobangs, formspring me ok! Much appreciated :)

Wish time could pause here at this right moment, i don't know if i'm going into a relationship a fast thing for me right now, or is it to forget JJ ? Maybe yes maybe no, my heart told me to follow it and i really did what it want me to do, i can't be selfish too, everyone fighting for his or her happiness, i want my happiness too, i don't want anyone to hurt me again and again, it's tiring fighting to be strong , it isn't a fun thing to do that at all, it hurts million times. No one say life is easy, no one.
Struggling for the past three months fighting what really belong to me, my happiness.

My one week relationship with bf has been good, hope we can maintain like this. I wonder how can anyone like him can really accept my past, he told me he wanna bring me back to his house to let his family to meet me, but what if one day they found out that i'm not the ideal girl that they wish for? Because not everyone can accept such past that happened to me, i'm really afraid of how people paint a picture of me of how they look at me, i really am. I wish things can really slow down by itself and i'll never let the past history to let it repeat again. I want a honest relationship and also a partner that really can truly accept my past and not CUI GONG LANPA SONG just like some jerk perviously promised me before, can't believe i actually believe him, if my this current bf is like him, i would have kill him double and i mean it , so bf don't ok if not i'll kill you three times , tsk!

I'm already taken , baby you're taken , you're an apple of my eye

2011-02-24T23:17:00.004+08:00

Every 20th on the calendar♥

Picture taken by beloved bf♥

Baby Charlene :)
♥

Just came back one hour ago , went over to visit Hui Ping over at her crib earlier on with bf , Yanling & Kevin , baby Charlene is cute! awww! :) I learn how to carry a baby and i'm so stress ah, babies are all so fragile, afraid that i might hurt till her but thanks to Yanling who actually thought me how to carry a baby in a proper way ahah! Initially all of us took turn to carry her but when i wanna pass to bf, he was too scare to carry so i told him, must train how to carry first if not your newborn baby nephew born out , you also need to carry. End up he pua stunt with me again, can't stand him tsk! :x

These few days have been meeting bf , thanks baby! :D I wonder how am i suppose to handle myself when bf enlist to ns, can that day be delay! I don't want to cry or sad when he temporary leave me :( I hate it when we parted, no way hell nonononono! we left about 3 more months to meet up woth each other ever now and then, i seriously hated being parted with someone whom i love , holding on tightly with. Sigh it's ok, i'm always used to this kind of life but this time round, , it is way too different, he's the main reason that i smiled :')

alright, shall upload some pictures taken yesterday with bf and earlier on's pictures! :) Click on my ads and formspring me! :) Thanks! :D

*baby, thanks for making me so happy each time we meet, the one who can accept my past and wanna settle down with me for years :') The one whom i've put my 100% love to you baby, please rmb our 100 pictures target before our 1st month! :') I love you, Shawn Chiang Jia Wei! :')

It's hard to live without that someone who makes hard things worth it

2011-02-22T21:21:00.005+08:00

Never allow anyone to try and break you. Let them be the drag . You just be a queen.

I'm so bored! Waiting for the time to past but what am i waiting for? Waiting for Jweiwei's sms haha! ( Boyfriend's new name by me) :) Coz his name is Jia Wei so i call him Jweiwei instead :)
anyway, he took half day leave just for me because i told i'll be going to visit my beloved Huiping and her baby this thursday and he took leave just for me, hehe :) Ass lor this boyfriend of mine, don't know at times wanna get angry or sad with him, tsk! I'm afraid after he enlist to Ns during May, will i able to handle all indepandence all by myself? Or will i reply on people ? I don't wish to lose anyone important in my life after what happened to me for that freaking past three months, i really don't want such things happen to me again, sometimes i still miss MLO alot , i really do :'( Sigh

These few days i've been so worn out easily especically after school, went home straight to take a nap , i think i'm old already ahha! I'm actually counting down to the days when my attachment start, i simply just can't wait for it and get over and done with so that i can graduate fast! Really hope i can continue to study after ITE, poly definitely would be my first choice for now, but will i able to handle the stress? I hope i can manage that without the help of anyone except moral support of course :)

Alright, i find it a drag if i continue crapping nonsense again, update again and please formspring me and click on my ads! Thanks you! :D

Being blessed is 1 thing, but realizing its value is another thing. You should have both things so that your life will be a perfect picture.

2011-02-21T05:21:00.004+08:00

The guy whom i wanna spend with the rest of my life :') Thanks for making me so cheerful :')

Happy Birthday! Hope you like the present i gave :)

Didn't get to blog yesterday night, was too tired to even start typimg as i was working for this two days on weekend at Bpp :) Chanced upon a few familiar faces over there, job over there sucks, simply just wasting my time, fml still thinking whether to continue working or to look for a better job but what else job beside promoter? :( I'll still stuck at there but hopefully during march period, hope there's lobang to work for IT fair, i missed working with Sharon, Jacker & Clarence buddies ! :( Hope Phillip company call me soon, reminiscing haha! :)

Yesterday was bf's birthday and also the day when he asked me:" 你可以做我的女朋友吗？" :$ hehehe :) i hope he enjoyed himself and the present which i gave him, thanks bby for making me happy whenever i'm with you :') You made me so happy each time we were outside, love :) More to go and i hope everything goes smoothly for us :')

It's 5.31am now and i'm waking up at the wrong timing just to update my blog haha! Weird but actually main reason was to transfer all pictures into my phone , school in awhile and i'm waking up at this timing, arghhh! Alright, enough nonsense and i shall update till here! More to go and please help me click on my ads & formspring me! :) Thanks :)

Forget what hurt you in the past. But never forget what it taught you

2011-02-18T23:34:00.004+08:00

Back home one hour ago hehe! I'm a happy girl today , thanks for making me the happiest girl today :') Anyway, went on a date with JiaWei today, went to watched " No String Attached"

went to meet his friends too, i like meeting new people haha! Spend my day with him, i really enjoyed today activity even though it's just a simple date but i really appreciated what you've done :) Many many more to go! :D Thank you once again, love love! ^^ *( insert many many hearts )

Why is the person that makes my heart break, the same one that makes it beat faster?

2011-02-14T19:53:00.003+08:00

First of all, wanna wish Singles / Attached ; HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! (Y)
hope you guys are having fun while celebrating, well obviously i'm at home for the whole of today
don't really celebrate even i was asked to, i don't see the point of celebrating when i know this day which is today is just an ordinary day and i don't really feel any excitement for this day, no i mean it, it reminds me of how my last year valentine's day was celebrated, quite saddening but because of all of this bad memories that had been haunting me down, my life is miserable because of how i was treated but today, i wanna prove to him that even without him, i still can move on my life to start of with, i wanna prove to him that how much he hurt me in the past, is the price that he had to pay back, obviously karma will strike on him soon, i just wanna let the whole world know he is a jerk running away from reality while i was the one all along, bearing all this hurts and that resulted who i was when i used to be, thanks :'(

I really wish someone could turn back time for me, it's too hurting but i still got to try, Jia you to me :')

Its not always about trying to fix something broken. Its about starting over and creating something better

2011-02-11T21:28:00.006+08:00

Say hello to goodbye ' I wish i could met someone that love me hard enough and always protect me

Happy birthday to my yan dao "boyfriend" daddy! hahaha!

At MBS

It's dad's birthday yesterday, hope he enjoyed himself :)

No lesson for today, watched " The Street Dance " instead , nothing much happened in school too

left early instead of going over to W's as to help him out for those interview questions as i promised to guide him through over customer service but the tired me went home early instead to sleep for 4 hours hehe ^^v

Both my grandparents were at my house , the thought of getting up and prepare myself to meet W simply made me turn off because i was too tired and lazy to prepare myself, hope he don't get angry with me as i didn't do it on purpose :(

Valentine's day is in 3 more days, thinking about it, used to celebrate this day with him , i don't know why i still think about us, it shows that how important our relationship was in the past, but because all the wrong move and mistakes, we both fell out of it and both never contacted back

not even think of patching up because he's too jerk enough to be my bf, a leopard never change it's spot, i must really thank him for letting me from where i fall, stood up again and move on even without him entering my life, i would never let anyone hurt me again, it's too hurtful to be in this state, i don't wish anyone or anybody to hurt me again, enough is enough.

I don't wish to hurt anyone again, i'm sorry if i start to push you like i did before, because of all those hurt i got , i don't wish anything to happen to me anymore, it's my bad for not trusting your love, sorry. Wish to be alone for the time being~

With every heartbeat

2011-02-08T20:27:00.003+08:00

With every heartbeat ; ( In remembering those life & dealth )

Hey guys! I'm here to update hehe! :) In case you guys must be wondering what am i doing, ive start school on monday but i didn't went to school yesterday hehe! :) Have been meeting W this few days to accompany him , what are friends for right? Be there for one another if we ever encounter problems, it really feel great when you're there for someone like giving uncondition love, because at least you know that someone care for you and willing to sacrifice their time for you, ain't a sweet thing? haha! i hope he would be strong enough to stand up and move on like how he was in the past, now it's my turn to be there when he needed someone, we can from inperfection to perfection because we know no one is perfect in this world but with definitely one day we can stand up again and move on with our life , being happy go lucky :)

Received unexpected call from Yi Kai last night before i went to sleep, thanks for the concern

i'm really fine, i'm perfectly fine :') I'm not pretending but it's the fact that i am leading this kind of carefree life when i don't have to worry about anything , have been going out to meet up with friends , to chill and i miss those days when we used to hang out , i hope that would be enough heartbreaks for me , i wish to put everything at a stop, this is seriously too much for me to handle. I need a break ~

Time for me to chiong my project now, update when i'm free! CIAOZ! do remember to click on my ads and formspring me! ^^v

Happy New Year!

2011-02-04T13:20:00.004+08:00

Happy RABBIT Year! HUAT AH!

With Deborah Biaojie :)

The Teo sisters

Mum's side : The Teo Family ( Not many people is in the picture )

Cousins from father's side

Chong Families

The guys with great grandmother :)

The elder generations :)

The Lee Family

Hey! Just wanna update a small entry about Chinese New Year as currently this is the second day of cny which means i'm expecting my relatives & cousins to be in my house for visiting haha! So right now, mountain people mountain sea hahahaha! So exaggerating lor but bare with me k!
anyway wanna wish everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR! enjoy while it last, those legal or not legal , go enjoy yourself by drink drank drunk drama ; clubbing hahahaha! xD

Poor me currently falling sick, have been coughing and sneezing for consecutive three days and ate 4 panadols :( Sad die me :( opps :x Having headache now, i seldom fall sick but i guess it must be due to not enough sleep i guess? Or maybe thinking too much lately? Stress! I've yet to complete my SEN project and i must rush as the dateline is on the 18th feb :(

Alright, i shall end here! update with more pictures soon! Stay tune! People! plese formspring me and click on my ads! :)

Written in the stars

2011-01-30T14:15:00.006+08:00

I rather slip and fall in a pile of shit then falling in love with you , because of the choices i made and fall for the wrong person, that resulted who am i today, thanks for that greatest effort

Boredom kills! Blogging when it's raining and i'm hungry! I spend my sunday just by watching movies online, facebook , twitter , formspring & smsing with dearie heh heh! ^^v

i really like the life i'm leading now, i don't have to worry about anything , not worrying if i'm being hurt over and over again, because i know someone deserve to walk into my life and never thought of leaving me, always be there for me, being trueful ; this is then call love. I learn how to forgive but not forget. If you want ur love one to treat you better, treat them the same way like they do and never thinks of leaving them.

Chinese new year is round the corner, i can't wait ! One thing i'm going to do after cny, is .....

inking sak yant. So...... i'm gonna save lots of money and thursday my pay day! yeah! Nothing much to update now, dearie went back to sleep once he booked out from camp, and i'm waiting for sis to pack food for me, famish! :(

Alright, click on my ads & formspring me ok! Much loves all readers! :)

Happy 18th !

2011-01-30T00:29:00.004+08:00

Happy 18th to me once again! :) To say the truth, i thought all 18th suppose to have a blast but for me, it was like normal ordinary day ; nice (Y) By right, i've already expected that this year birthday would be just a normal birthday for me, kinda sad and disappointed but it's ok , i'm fine no worries, more to go and the next one should be much more better! Every year birthday without fail, there would be birthday cakes but today, no cakes for me haha but it's ok, beacuse all along i'm not even excited for my 18th birthday, i'm not , i'm not happy . Still, got to thanked my friends who celebrated with me, simple celebration although plan changed due to heavy raining and everyone's mood was spoiled, gek xim ttm ok! :(

Thanks to those who wished me too, you know who you are! facebook, twitter, calls & smses! :)
haha! that 117 friends who wishes me! Thanks thanks, much appreciated ! ;D
alright, pictures time and enough of crap, time to turn in too , goodnight! :)

There were no expectations, just suck it up

2011-01-28T20:57:00.005+08:00

It's 28th jan today, few more hours .........

i'll turn into 18 years old! :D

countdown with me ok! hehe! i can't wait when the clock strike 12am! :D

will be back on the actual day for pictures, stay tune! ^^v

I rather be the pain that you remember , rather then the love you forget

2011-01-25T19:59:00.005+08:00

I want you remember that you're that jerk who ruin my life for that entire 11 months, fuck you! ._.

Can't wait to use this hello kitty mat this saturday! HEHEHE! 18 SOON TO BE :D

Sawadeekup! :) Got the feel to update my blog even though i still do not have enough sleep
feeling lethargic every now and then after i started working weekend job and after working for the third week, i feel kind of sian of that job already although it's weekend job , seriously honestly speaking, my break suppose to be at 5pm to 6pm, guess what? I can always go early as and when i want ok, i feel like a pro because i can from Centrepoint walked all the way to Far East! :) Provided that if i'm working at town area and guess what? I can get out off Far East with like 4 plastic bags in my hands ahahahhaa! Pro not?! Ok la i'm daring :x I think my this job really very slack, i like working at roadshows because at least can meet new friends or whatever, rather then you stay at the supermarket giving out samples and all the aunties keep complaining this and that, i just can't work with older generation unless they're nice people :(

I rather work back my old job, imagine you work only 9 days already $450 , why not?! One day $50 is already not bad and you can straight away get your pay , not like i;ve to wait every 10 days to get my three days or even two days pay, end up i might as well just take the money and don't work? Good idea right? Roadshow also not bad, got commission, i think i should find a job that has commission , laugh ok la main point is not to talk about this haha!

Anyway, have been meeting W this few days after school , we even quarreled over the phone last night when i was sleeping and i realised it's 1.07am in the morning lor! I'm not pushing you away, i just don't get it why everytime whenever we talked, you have to bring up stuffs that i dislike which hurt me so much that i feel like just stop contacting you again, must i really be the old me which i've to let things repeat again?! I don't wish to hurt you again neither do i have the intenstion to do so, i just wish we both can settle down and move on , not stucking at one same old place , you made me reallised that how important you're when i was with you, sometimes when you said something hurtful and i turn my back to face you and leave, i wishes you to follow me because i know you care, you still chase me back no matter how tiring you are, i do too will fork out my time to be there for you when you needed me, i really don't wish to be that bitch to hurt you over and over again, because i don't want to get hurt again , i've enough of being hurt already and i don't wish you to do that to me too,even a short meetup can make me realised how important you are to me :'(

The part that hurts me the most, is knowing that I once had you and then lost you

2011-01-22T21:58:00.005+08:00

Wenyi's 18th Birthday!

Sorry, it seems that i've been neglecting my space here for long but whatever it is, i've already move on to a new life, actually i've already did but i kept dragging it, the reason why i move on was that i know that the fact that i shouldn't be holding on to a relationship when i knew that we can never be together , wasting that eleventh months with that person is already a waste of time when i knew i couldn't have happiness with him, especially recalling back to the incident, this is not love anymore, it's hatred. What really hurt me is that, the effort that was put into this relationship with him, has gone into waste.

Anyway, i've just reached home not long , have been spending my days either studying or working, but everything changed ever since i contacted back with W . Recently, i've been meeting him , i hope he can cheer himself up. I want to be that girl who can cheer you up, be there for you when you needed me, the one that can make you smile, the one that erase back those mistakes which i hurt y
ou one year ago and i want to be that girl who never hurt you again and the girl who stop pushing you too. :')

Alright, i shall end till here ; be back when i've more pictures but let me upload overdues pictures first! Remember to formspring me! :D

Even a 5 mins kiss/hug , it reminds me of our memories.

爱错一个人

2011-01-20T04:27:00.006+08:00

I decided to come update my blog at this timing 4.27am and i;m hungry
yesterday was actually a day that i feel so happy, i met him again : Winson Tan
The guy who care so much about me, the one who actually secretly waiting for me, have a crush on me and i actually basturd him and i left with this guy name JJ ._. I honestly regret being with him for this 11 months because i wasted a year to love the wrong person, the one who ruin my future even now, if i had choose Winson at that period of time, i can actually honestly say that my life won't suffer so many setbacks, it hurts that i've to gone through this alone and this fucker after a month of break up, he had a new girl __ Acting like a dick blocking me in facebook! Hah! What a joke! This has prove that tis guy whom i spend with for 11 months, has actually acted like a dick, forget it because of this , i managed to give up on him , and it's totally give up on him because it's really a time wasting loving the wrong person who ruin my future , ruin my everything, thank to him that i can finally step out of my own square box which i had been there almost a month and i've been very depressed on what i've to hold on to useless thing

Honestly speaking , whenever i was with JJ , even though we had many upteens of cold war, i'll still think of Winson , we lost contact for a year and now which is two days ago, i actually took the first step to add him back in Facebook and from there we started to share one another 's problems, i feel great talking to him honestly speaking i'm not afraid to speak up to him about my problem, i can see that he's around me, that kind of feeling which i feel protected , i really can feel it , many people say if an old lovers once meet again, there sure be a feeling back and yes it is, i can feel that also and we two started to talked about how we meet, how i basturd him over a guy which i wasted a year loving him and he didn't even bother . It was him ( Winson) who taught me and guide along when at that period of time way back to 2009 , i didn't get the hint that he actually had a crush on me and waited patiently , i broke his heart by saying lots of meanful stuffs and i really did hurt him but he didn't really blame me , because everyone has a past and so do i , you know my name not by my story .

This post is not about ranting something that i've started to hate that Jerk so much ( JJ) , it's about how i wasted a year of my time being with the wrong person when i know he can't give me much happiness, but i still wants to be with him when i myself even know that he's not a guy that i even should think of marrying him or whatever and that resulted me to suffer so much on this process that i've to stand up again when i fall ,if i had open my heart bigger and eyes , i would have still give a chance to Winson to woo me back , because i know he deserve a second chance , when we two talked to each other, it was my first time i saw him tear infront of me because of how his ex gf treated him , but he still wait for her , at that point of time i try to put myself into his shoe, am i not doing the same too? It hurts me when i saw him in this state and funny was he kept asking me why i didn't choose him if not both of us now still together, because he believes that i am the girl that won't him but he was totally wrong on me , i'm actually the girl who break his heart on the Nov 2009 , the day when i cheated his feeling . Sigh

It was really great talking to him, we both still can laughed over such silly things we once did , the first time i knew him till today, he didn't forget me in fact he still remember every single moment of how i betrayed him just that it's exactly one year we didn't contact each other, even though he suffered so much because of how his ex gf betrayed him, he still asked me this question : " If one day, god made & bring us back together, will you be my gf will you want that kind of life when we're in year 2009? " My answer till today was the same answer i gave him in the year 2009 :" I wanna go back to 2009, it brings me lots of memories that we spend together, i want back that kind of life & i don't want to suffer again " He actually made me realised alot of things, from outsider which people we don't know mistaken us as couple, even an outsider from the look of outside, can actually see through us that we look like couple, really amazing even our horoscope say the fact too when Leo & Aquarius both attracted to each other :') It's damm true , i myself & him also think the same things!

Capricon & Aquarius can't be a couple but more on a friend and they can't / suit to get marry or settle down , THIS PART DAMM FUCKING THROUGH! Thank god everything end now, but i still managed to let go of this relationship because i know i deserved a better guy which can give me happiness, which won't flirt around , which one betray me ._. I believe in karma!

You must be thinking that why i wanna update at this timig because the whole night , i was thinking about how me & winson actually meet , i'm afraid that i would fall for him even though he told me everything and he too afraid that he might hurt the next girl because both of us , encounter the same problems and both of us have everything in common and it's honestly everything in common, great minds think alike! After saying so much, readers i don't want you to feel that i'm like a bitch trying to flirt around, i am not ok i wanna let you guys know about my story and how i really gone through this period of time, if you guys have encounter the same problems as me, be sure of what you want in life and how you wanna move on, be brave and strong because there's always a backup supporting you non stop which is your friends & family, today i realised how important they're no matter where i am or what i'm doing, thank you for all those who stood by my side and never once leave me, thanks all! :')

I want him to know that even we two ever meet again, i would tell him he give me a good memories i had with him even with no status, i'm thankufl that he give me a great memories till today, i don't regret knowing him. It can be both of us be more then just a good friend , but more to a good lover , but i didn't want that too even if god really bring us back together, because he is too good and he is a nice guy, i don't want to hurt him but i'll be there for him when he need me or he need a listening ear.

Alright, i shall end till here! Be sure to formspring me & click on my ads!!! :D Gonna head back sleep now ahahhahaha!

Love you once , hold you back twice , Get hurt thrice , what's next?

2011-01-17T21:39:00.004+08:00

I'm starring at this empty page for 15 mins because i don't know what to update, i have alot to say but i don't know where to start, sigh :(

I've been keeping myself busy with work and school, it's not easy to maintain how i want my life to be, i kept injured myself during work and i've got 6 bruises on my leg lor :( One of the days when i was working, i've to carry this bloody heavy bag full of poles to set up the booth and the sharp end just slash through my flesh, gosh! I feel like giving up and throw all my work stuffs on the floor and just pack and go home but i didn't because if i do so, i'm like a failure thinking each time whenever i encounter such problems, little bit i wanna give up already :(

Anyway, second week of school today, everything so far so good! Welcome back to all my classmates who just came back from Nepal! :D Hugged each and every of them, missed all my good friends :D Catching up session with them , feel so good! ;D I feel touched when i saw them and i nearly cried :') Tears with joy not sadness hahaa!

aftermath, went to gym! I think i should invest more time inside gym lor, monday to thursday gym , friday to sunday work, eh not bad right? Should be a good idea haha! For today , i ran 3km on the treadmil , because i wanna pour all my sadness to running to make me feel better, abit aggressive in the first place , but i'll get used to it already, hopefully? :O

Alright, i shall turn in now , feeling so restless today, me wanna go orh orh liao! GOODNIGHT!

11.11pm : To YJJ
Remember me for the girl who used to pampered you with the things you used to like/love even you didn't ask from me, remember for the one who once and used to love you so hard enough then i cried so much whenever i flip open my folders to scan through our pictures , i laughed at how we used to take pictures together, i even compile everything in one collage to remember all the good memories we used to have, remember me for the good memories with me not the bad times, i definitely still miss you even today , just that i don't wanna see you because i'm afraid to get hurt by you again , no matter for what reasons, my heart always have a place for someone, it's you just that i don't know how long i can keep that space for you, i don't know how long i can hold on but i want you know, no matter where i am , i still think of us , almost a year of r/s is not easy to give up , if one day if we ever meet again , tell me that you still love me and have already move on... Start to treasure the person you love, not when they're gone you start to cherish them.

it's hard to let someone in when everytime you did; your heart was left in a million pieces

2011-01-15T03:49:00.002+08:00

It's 3.50am now and i've just woke up, the reason why i wanna blog right now because i've never feel so hurtful other then just being sad itself, my inner emotion inside me is totally hurting me till i end up crying, it's not about the word " Sad + hurtful" , it's all about how someone actually commented about your life, your current situation, your past relationship with someone you love so hard and end up seperated and about your friends, they're my parents who actually said that, tell me it is that hurtful? I went up crying when i was sleeping, it kills me 10 times more then you think and i thought family should give you warmth but how come they can said such nasty things to you, your own blood somemore, shouldn't they stand out for one another? Why are they saying such hurtful things to me, it really hurts when they mentioned about my past relationship with him , yea i can don't cry about it but i finally did, you know why? Told you so ..., they said nasty things about both of us , not just particularly about us , it's between my relationship with him, about us....

You mau not get the rough idea but trust me, they've provoke me and i'm gonna kill them three times ._. Honestly speaking, throughout this 17 and a half year of my life , yes i've used to it already but this times round they wanna make it like nobody business because of what really happened to me over that incident, can you imagine living with them and they kept saying the same old things repeatly non stop? It's fucking hurftul already and yet they add salt into your wound, here i am struggling hard to prove everyone that past is past, move on and be happy but how can i be in that way when such things actually stop me from doing and i get affected so easily, seriously lor i don't deserve it at all, i don't ! I'm a human being with feelings too, i can feel what's between sadness & being hurtful.

It's even hurtful when someone commented about your life & your current situation on and on like almost 24/7 non stop like radio and no one put themselves in your shoe to feel hwo you feel, the feel the greatest pain inside you, sigh why do all this things end up like that, i really really wanna go back to 2009 when everything is so perfectly well done or even so, world end at 2012 better, no one will die because of sadness but being hurtful i suppose? Sigh i really need a hug but it's been long since i had it ever since we seperated and he's the only person i used to rant to but now not anymore, i wish we could rewind back and correct our mistakes but i find it impossible now, haish!

Working later at 11am to 7pm, tell me how about am i going to stay energetic later for work!! HAISH!

一辈子被痛苦的回忆缠着

2011-01-12T18:47:00.004+08:00

Remember my name, remember me for whom the girl who never give up hope on you, whom created wonderful memories for that eleventh months ,whom took 24/7 be there for you, who used to say 'iloveyou' to you but you took me for granted.

Third day of school, so far so good except that every now & then school end damm early! :D
The latest would be 2.30pm and the earliest is 11am! :) Shiok ttm! Well , June would be having attachment soon, can't wait to graduate and go to poly :) I would rather go Poly then Higher Nitec, short route but i need to get at least 3.5 for my GPA :( This year, i would work extra hard for my gpa, definitely is a must! I've wasted almost a year of playing afool with my studies and it's time to play Catchup game! Wish me all the best then! hahaha! :D

Well, school ended early this few days and i've been to gym this few days & i'm happy that i've lose weight! Finally! After all this while of struggling and waiting, it's really the worth of waiting!
Right now, i'm actually busy with my own stuff and i'm actually doing fine now, it might take time to heal , do what i'm suppose to do and let things naturally come to me, is it really that true? I hope it's true lor, i wish everything would have an easy way out so that i don't have to be so stress of so many things, yea once in a while i would tend to think about those pasts but i do really wanna look forward for the future instead of the past, what done has been done, no point dwelling about it, it might hurt me in the inside but here i am, struggling to fight back for my happiness and no more heartbreaks.

My weekend seems to be burn with weekend jobs :( But it's ok, at least i got some income, i don't wanna depend others but myself, who won't like the feeling of being pamper? I'm going to be 18 years old in 17 days time, do i really wanna go back to the time when i always depend on others? I still missed him but at times i hate him because of how ignorant and selfish of himself not to care about me when i need him by my side, i always depend on him but now , i've no others to depend on but myself, yea life sucks but life still goes on :(

Alright, shall end here & remember to click my ads + formspring me!!!!!!!!! :B

Sometimes, we hang on , even we should let go . Because sometimes, the right things doesn't always give us the right feelings .

Love between Hatred

2011-01-10T23:16:00.005+08:00

First day of school today & yet i was send home because of not wearing my FT pants :( I'm lazy to dye black my hair too, arghh! I don't wanna say byebye to red hair :( Actually it's not really that obvious also, don't know why when we're in year 2, everything is so strict now! :( Ok life goes on, and it eventually will always be ...

Well, nothing much really happened just that i'm pretty tired after working this 3 days job over at town and i miss centrepoint cold storage staff! They're so good to me, in fact the depeartment manager invited me over to his house during CNY! Just nice , he stay near Senja road , heng not far and it's so convenient for me to travel haha! Anyone, wanna tag along with me? *Hint Hint * ;) I'll definitely miss F&N yogurt aunty because everytime i did promoting, she would give me a big cup of yogurt to eat :D My all time favourite but i prefer Meji & Yumi Yogurt &&&& Mango snow ice! [ When was the actual day i last ate? Sigh :( ]

Anyway, after being send home , i didn't really went home but i was with Sherlyn and we went over to job and i'm proud to say that.... i've lost weight! Damm happy ^^ Gonna start gymming this one week to keep me started in gymming again! Yes! Finally :D

Aftermath, headed over to batok ave 5 to get my fringe cut into bangs ( AGAIN ) & went for rebonding for my fringe too, so miss my fringe now haha! Nvm hair will grow! ;D In fact i'm jealous of girls having long hair till their butt, jealous** :(

Alright, shall turn in now & school tml! :( Goodnight!

What hurt me the most was our love wasn't that strong anymore

2011-01-08T23:07:00.006+08:00

My uniform of the day! Machiam like bao ba zhang! :( LOL

Promoting Koorimo Ice Cream!

I almost stuck inside this big fridge! It's damm cooling !

Didn't update my blog this few days as i've just started working and i'm working weekend job, this is just the second day of work, it's quite fun in the beginning , but seeing all those supervisiors really pissed me off, i'm actually working an event for this cny session , promoting this japanese ice cream and also giving out sample of ice cream to customers, and i've to set up the booth all by myself at cold storage supermarket, carrying heavy stuff and i always got myself a cut on my hands & legs :( I hope next week change of an event please, seeing some customer giivng shit face when you're trying to give good services to them, wth like i own them money ._. Ridiculous!

Anyway, anyone interested in look jobs? I'm job lobang queen hahaha! I've got two jobs offer to people who is interested in working ,

1) Working for Fashion Accessories ( My past job ) , working hour is from 3pm to 11pm , start work on the 14th Jan and will be given special ang pao by the boss! Location is at Jurong west , Clementi Central, ChinaTown , $5 per hour

2) Demo media company ( which is the one i'm working for right now ) there are alot of event coming up, anyone girls or boys also can work, 22nd jan we're promoting coke event! :) Need about 100 promoters, it would be good if the guys apply this job because you can actually help to carry all this heavy packs of coke , it would be good if the girls apply too! :) Working hours would be 12pm to 8pm! $7/$8 per hour! :)))

Anyone interested , formspring memememememe!!!!! ^^

Enough of typing already, having backache due to carry heavy stuff :( Working tml again! Gonna turn in soon! Goodnight! ^^

I didn't walk away because i fell out of love, i left because i was tired of seeing two people struggling so hard on a relationship when it can be mend back but it all fall apart, shouldn't that person deserve a second chance?

Prove to me that you still care

2011-01-06T23:47:00.006+08:00

It's getting late yet i'm not sleeping yet :( I should be sleeping early because i'm working tml plus i'm working alone , well i'm used to it but the enviroment so not used to it la, but whatever it is, goodluck to me :D

anyway, i don't know what really happened to me today, i almost gonna let myself kill in a road accident sooner or later , seriously i'm not joking, maybe today wasn't a good day and i guess i was putting too much focusing on things that i shouldn't be, my mind just went haywire today, honestly speaking i don't know why memories started to flash back , and my heart really sank deeply, supposingly i should took a bus back to the nearest mrt when i'm at redhill, but who knows i took the bus back to woodland, i wasted almost one hour journey back but until i realised the bus reaches Kranji and i saw the mrt track, without thinking & looking, i just alight at the stop and who knows i alighted at the wrong junction of the road and it's at night la, alone somemore.

I thought when i alighted , there would be a bridge crossing over to the mrt but who knows, the distance from where i alighted to there is a huge difference and it's freaking dark please, i woke up from my senses and i realised i alight at the wrong bus stop so i hurried to the next bus stop , tell me power anot me? 5 mins jiu reached liao, thanks to my long leg ._. So then, i reached Kranji mrt and took the train. The train came and i thought the next time would be woodland but instead it should be Masiling, but guess what again? I alighted at Marsiling and i realised eh! how come this station like so quiet! When i looked up the sign board, my goodness! I alighted at the wrong stop again!

I don't know whether to laugh or get angry , it might be funny to you but to me, i feel that i'm being stupid lor, why wanna let things affected me so much that i could actually put everything at one side and do something else, what actually was i thinking this time round? Was it you? I am sure it's you. But i don't blame anything or anyone, i guess i've missed you for such a long period and our separation for one month, time really past so fast, was it my fault to leave you ? I kept blaming myself but everyone say it's not my fault, deep down my heart , i still love you and will always be there but it just that you don't deserve to to have my love because of the way you treated me, loving you each and every day but will you able to feel it? Will you?